God has shown me to trust Him more, my husband took a job out of state in December and I have stayed behind 11 hours from him, till either our lease is up in Oct 18 or when the house rents, this has been so hard, he comes home 1 weekend a month. We’re at a critical point, we’re both lonely and I have prayed daily and continously for a hedge of protection around my husband and have prayed to the Lord to give me wisdom and peace of things I cannot control while being apart.
God is changing my heart and ways so I can become a more spiritual Godly wife.He has shown me that He’s never left me. I am praying that we get good news on Thursday or Friday that we can start planning to move and join one another by August 18. Things that I know that are going on and my husband doesn’t know what I know, and I may be raging inside, but the Lord has taught me to stay quiet and pray. And he’ll take care of my husband. I just need prayer for lifting up that the news will be a blessing and I can join my husband.
This summer, has been very difficult for me, as I have had to bear the news that people close to me were dead, or had been killed or suffering from the effects of war.
I have been saying the “lord’s prayer” almost everytime it pops into my mind, as I am literally praying ” thy kingdom come”. Just a simple prayer, that is ever reminding me that I need to forgive as I have been forgiven…that’s the only way, I can let go of my frustration, anger, pain, disappointment, sadness, and more pain.
I hope that at the end, of this spiritual journey, I wil have more compassion, tolerance, patience, and pray that my heart will not harden nor my love grow
“cold”
independence – dependence. I don’t have to be independent all the time. At times it’s good to be dependent & ask for help. Give others a chance to show kindness to me. Accept the kindness offered graciously.
Though spiritually I learn to depend on God and come before Him with my prayers and petitions, I’m still taking baby steps to depend on people.
We changed churches a couple years ago. Grew up in a well know conservative evangelical denomination. Attended the same large congregation for the 27+ years after marriage. About 18 years ago, the Sr pastor of the church really hurt me. sounds like a two year old whining doesn’t it? But he really hurt me, accused me of having no integrity – and not in a one on one setting, but in a committee setting – when his choice for a new staff member and my opinion of the same conflicted. I confronted him – one on one – he apologized (of course) but his lack of sincerity was demonstrated time and time again over the next 18 or so years. “forgiven” but never reconciled. his treatment of staff and seeming focus on self-centered objectives for his vision of the church finally exploded. Others (a very large goup – 100+), hurt by this man, finally organized and sought to confront him. This, modeled after the appropriate sequence of one-on-one, two-on-one, and finally the group- to-the church to the board. We left, as did scores of others. My unanswered question remains. How is it that God has ’caused’ these situations to occur? Or even allowed them to occur? What ever your perspective on God’s sovereignty, I have struggled. indeed, battled, over this situation and the many nagging unanswered questions. God seems silent in all of this. So now what? Still I go on, as Peter said, for to who else would I turn? There still remains no more logical answer to the larger questions of the universe, than that there is one true living God, and that Jesus is His son. So I must be a slow learner, or a masochist, for I can not seem to leave this behind.
martismith57 on July 13, 2009 at 7:55 pm
God has shown me to trust Him more, my husband took a job out of state in December and I have stayed behind 11 hours from him, till either our lease is up in Oct 18 or when the house rents, this has been so hard, he comes home 1 weekend a month. We’re at a critical point, we’re both lonely and I have prayed daily and continously for a hedge of protection around my husband and have prayed to the Lord to give me wisdom and peace of things I cannot control while being apart.
God is changing my heart and ways so I can become a more spiritual Godly wife.He has shown me that He’s never left me. I am praying that we get good news on Thursday or Friday that we can start planning to move and join one another by August 18. Things that I know that are going on and my husband doesn’t know what I know, and I may be raging inside, but the Lord has taught me to stay quiet and pray. And he’ll take care of my husband. I just need prayer for lifting up that the news will be a blessing and I can join my husband.
mp on July 13, 2009 at 9:11 pm
This summer, has been very difficult for me, as I have had to bear the news that people close to me were dead, or had been killed or suffering from the effects of war.
I have been saying the “lord’s prayer” almost everytime it pops into my mind, as I am literally praying ” thy kingdom come”. Just a simple prayer, that is ever reminding me that I need to forgive as I have been forgiven…that’s the only way, I can let go of my frustration, anger, pain, disappointment, sadness, and more pain.
I hope that at the end, of this spiritual journey, I wil have more compassion, tolerance, patience, and pray that my heart will not harden nor my love grow
“cold”
evelyn on July 13, 2009 at 10:19 pm
independence – dependence. I don’t have to be independent all the time. At times it’s good to be dependent & ask for help. Give others a chance to show kindness to me. Accept the kindness offered graciously.
Though spiritually I learn to depend on God and come before Him with my prayers and petitions, I’m still taking baby steps to depend on people.
Glen on July 17, 2009 at 7:12 am
We changed churches a couple years ago. Grew up in a well know conservative evangelical denomination. Attended the same large congregation for the 27+ years after marriage. About 18 years ago, the Sr pastor of the church really hurt me. sounds like a two year old whining doesn’t it? But he really hurt me, accused me of having no integrity – and not in a one on one setting, but in a committee setting – when his choice for a new staff member and my opinion of the same conflicted. I confronted him – one on one – he apologized (of course) but his lack of sincerity was demonstrated time and time again over the next 18 or so years. “forgiven” but never reconciled. his treatment of staff and seeming focus on self-centered objectives for his vision of the church finally exploded. Others (a very large goup – 100+), hurt by this man, finally organized and sought to confront him. This, modeled after the appropriate sequence of one-on-one, two-on-one, and finally the group- to-the church to the board. We left, as did scores of others. My unanswered question remains. How is it that God has ’caused’ these situations to occur? Or even allowed them to occur? What ever your perspective on God’s sovereignty, I have struggled. indeed, battled, over this situation and the many nagging unanswered questions. God seems silent in all of this. So now what? Still I go on, as Peter said, for to who else would I turn? There still remains no more logical answer to the larger questions of the universe, than that there is one true living God, and that Jesus is His son. So I must be a slow learner, or a masochist, for I can not seem to leave this behind.