This week has been and will continue to be a week of dumping burdens.
I know what I am supposed to do with these burdens. And even though I rest on one day and lay them down at my Saviors feet and cast them on His strong shoulders, I will catch myself running to them and picking them back up and trying to carry them all over again in a spilt second.
When I pick them up I find my focus gets scattered. I find myself unable to even think straight because I’m trying to keep account of all my burdens. In my inability to focus, I become unable to hear my family clearly and I can’t find enough quiet in my own head to complete a single thought and then I find myself frustrated and spewing irritability on everyone.
Believe it or not, I think I’ve discovered that these times can cause me to havefgbv a migraine. It begins with me being dizzy and light headed and unable to focus my eyes and then the dull throbbing begins behind my eye and wraps around my neck and up the back of my head to my forehead.
Yes, I do believe that our attitude physically affects us.
My husband and I just finished having a conversation about attitude and about the fact that we are in complete control of how we choose to respond to certain things. You see, I’ve chosen to respond to some of the things he has said to me this week with hurt and anger and I have chosen to hang on to each instance so that I could let the justification of my irritability build with what I call hard core facts.
“See to it that no one comes short of the grace of God; that no root of bitterness springing up causes trouble, and by it many be defiled” (Hebrews 12:15).
Yeah . . . ouch. Guilty.
We talked about how we were both guilty of doing this to each other. We have to make better choices. We’re both learning and growing in grace. How important it is that we recognize that we’re both a work in progress!
This week I ran and picked up my burden bags and then I held on to my bitter root and in my unfocused, frustrated irritability I have pouted around in between my moments of gratefulness for grace.
I have swayed back and forth by the wind of my circumstances even though I know I am to be standing strong on my solid Rock.
So once again I’m running to my God, to my Savior, to cast my burdens on Him.
He reminded me earlier today: Nicole, just breathe. I got this.
Hi Ho! Hi Ho! It’s off to the Burden Dump I go . . . —submitted by Nicole Vaughn, US
austin on September 26, 2011 at 8:18 am
You and me both, Nicole!
It’s a miserable way to live, so self destructive, but I too find myself picking up burdens that God is begging to carry for me.
kezia on September 28, 2011 at 11:44 am
How true! We always tend to pick up our heavy baggage and try to manage it on our own even as we are aware that our savior is ready to do it for us. We should remember he cannot do it unless we “allow” him to carry it for us.
May the Lord grant us that wisdom to trust him completely!!