“It was all about me.” So says a good friend of mine who uses those words to describe his life before Christ. As a young man, his musical talent had taken him on a ride of pride—basking in the accolades and drinking deep of pleasures that often come with popularity.
But then came the day when it all fell apart. His marriage. His façade. His propped-up ego. Before the blistering, white-hot holiness of God, he fell down on his knees and called out for mercy. He was finally broken.
Jacob had a similar experience. Just prior to entering the land that had been promised to his people (Genesis 15:7), he entered into a wrestling match with an angel of God (32:24). Struggles were nothing new for Jacob, for he had struggled with his brother (ch.25, 27), his father (ch.27), and his father-in-law (ch.29-31). Now he was struggling for a blessing from God (32:26).
The gloom of his lifetime of battling others was matched by the darkness of his overnight encounter with the angel (v.24). Exhausted, sweating, poured out, Jacob tried one last time to overpower his attacker at daybreak. But the angel “touched Jacob’s hip and wrenched it out of its socket” (v.25). Wounded and broken, Jacob clung to the angel and cried out for a blessing from God.
He was finally broken and ready to receive what he had tried to gain by his own means. The angel said his name would now be Israel, no longer Jacob (v.28). And now he was ready to enter the land that God had promised to the Israelites. Jacob’s new name (Israel) showed that, through his encounter with God’s power, he had learned humility and genuine faith.
Are you struggling with God? Fall down before Him and repent in brokenness. Being broken leads to blessing.
More:
Oh, give me back my joy again;? You have broken me—now let me rejoice.? Don’t keep looking at my sins. Remove the stain of my guilt (Psalm 51:8-9).
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How have you been broken before God? Why must we be broken to be fully prepared for God’s use?
clf on August 6, 2009 at 12:39 am
Why God can’t use us as the way He created us? Why He must “break” us? & why something unjust need to happen to us? There will be always scar leave behind after the brokenness.
chareica on November 3, 2009 at 8:05 pm
Concerning brokeness, God wants to use us the way He created us, but the “You” that you see in mirror is not the You that God created. It is who the world created. The things that we do are a direct result of how we think. The world has taught us the worng things for such a long period of time and God has to remove those things and replace them with His thoughts, ideas, truths, etc. It takes being broken in order for the True Spirit of God inside of you to come forth. Is that process unjust? Absolutely not. God loves us so much that He wants us to be correct when He uses us. He cannot do that when we have Self in the way. Try not to look at it as being scarred, but rather look at it as being purified. Even gold and diamonds must go through a process of purification before they are able to shine. That’s what God wants for us: to shine for His sake and not for our own. You do have a choice in the matter. You can either let God break you the easy way or the hard way. I suggest that you let Him do it the easy way. It will save you a love of heart ache and pain in the end.
fabi on August 6, 2009 at 9:41 am
I too had my “it was all about me” phase. Then, when the Lord granted me the greatest desire of my heart He entered the last mile of His work within me. It was then and there that my last battle took place and I was finally set free from my very own understanding and finally saw Him and His Grace. It had to be like that. Otherwise, how could I rejoice in HIM? If it hadn’t been like that I’d still be lost, wandering in life, wrestling with the Lord for something I believed was right and perfect. His Love saved me from myself. I thank HIM for loving me the way He does.
elisau on August 7, 2009 at 6:34 am
In order for God to fully “use” us for His purpose we must come broken to Him. It is only when we acknowledge that we can’t make it through this life on our own that He is able to restore us. We are all “broken” without God. The world we live in is dying all around us. We need Jesus to save us! He is the only source of truth and life.
simplejoy on September 4, 2009 at 4:11 pm
how much more brokeness do we need to have before God rescues us and grant us his much needed blessing?