As Timothy McVeigh faced execution for a terrorist act that killed 168 people, he released as his last statement the oft-quoted poem Invictus. It says in part, “I thank whatever gods may be for my unconquerable soul,” and concludes with these lines:
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate;
I am the captain of my soul.
The author, William Ernest Henley, was a likable man. But it’s clear that he didn’t seek assistance from his Creator, and that same kind of lone-wolf spirit resonated a century later in the dark heart of an unrepentant terrorist.
What if McVeigh the terrorist had turned his face toward Christ like the thief on the cross, who said: “Jesus, remember me when you come into your Kingdom”? (Luke 23:42). What if McVeigh had chosen the poetry of another man—King David—a man who was also a murderer?
The king poured out his broken emotions to the God who forgives: “I recognize my rebellion; it haunts me day and night” (Psalm 51:3). David had arranged the murder of Uriah to conceal his adultery. Eventually he would commit more sins—one that resulted in the death of thousands of his subjects (see 2 Samuel 24:10-16). But David turned toward God in genuine repentance, saying to Him, “I am the one who has sinned and done wrong! . . . Let your anger fall against me and my family” (2 Samuel 24:17). David was imperfect, and yet Scripture calls him “a man after [God’s] own heart” (1 Samuel 13:14).
Though our heavenly Father yearns for our affection, He never forces it. We can raise a defiant fist of independence against Him. Or we can look to the One who died to save us from ourselves and from our many sins. He leaves the choice to us.
NLT 365-day reading plan passage for today: Exodus 15:22-27; 17:1-7
More:
Read about David’s sin of self-sufficiency, God’s punishment of it, and David’s repentance in 2 Samuel 24:1-17.
Next:
How does it work to have a healthy independence and yet be fully dependent on God? What happens when you defy God and act as the captain of your soul?
Gary Shultz on February 11, 2015 at 5:33 am
Choice it is and choice it will be as God seeks those who want to be with Him. It’s the only way it could ever work. In that choice we give to God what we can’t do. We recognize only He is able to place us in His family and eternal existence. Every day I find it is good to remind myself who’s I am and how I should walk. Thanks for the reminder.
tgustafs on February 11, 2015 at 8:41 am
Ironically, this article speaks to my own heart as I am re-reading it today.
gmomhpa on February 11, 2015 at 7:08 am
MY CAPTAIN
Dorothea Day
(Christian)
Out of the night that dazzles me,
Bright as the sun from pole to pole,
I thank the God I know to be
For Christ the conqueror of my soul.
Since His the sway of circumstance,
I would not wince nor cry aloud.
Under that rule which men call chance
My head with joy is humbly bowed.
Beyond this place of sin and tears
That life with Him! And His the aid,
Despite the menace of the years,
Keeps, and shall keep me, unafraid.
I have no fear, though strait the gate,
He cleared from punishment the scroll.
Christ is the Master of my fate,
Christ is the Captain of my soul.
tgustafs on February 11, 2015 at 8:44 am
What an inspiring captain to emulate! Hers is indeed a story of grace and living up to her convictions.
tgustafs on February 11, 2015 at 9:24 am
A stanza from Dorothea Day’s poem: “Out of the night that dazzles me / Bright as the sun from pole to pole / I thank the God I know to be / For Christ the conqueror of my soul.”
Tom Felten on February 11, 2015 at 9:29 am
Tim, it’s interesting how God called people in the Scriptures like Moses, Deborah, David, Mary, and Paul to follow Him and do His work. Their heart response and belief in Him was key. So it is today—we have the opportunity to respond to His grace or reject it. Our choice will make all the difference.
godlove on February 11, 2015 at 12:27 pm
Thanks very much for this very timely message.
I’m so thankful and grateful to GOD Almighty that despite our many sinful ways, HE is waiting and willing to receive a d forgive us, if only we take the step of coming towards Him in repentance. This speaks to me directly today. Thank you very much and GOD Bless you.