As I sat in the surgical waiting room, I had plenty of time to think. I’d been here before. The last time, the outcome was bad—very bad. On that day, we received the news that my only brother was “brain dead”—two devastating words.
Today was different. Alone, I listened to the room’s nervous laughter, intense phone conversations, oblivious children, and the quiet voice of God. I penned a lengthy note to my wife, letting her know how I felt. I prayed.
Soon I learned that the surgeon wanted to see me in a private room. There, in that cloistered space, I would learn the results of my wife’s surgery. As I waited in the secluded room, I noticed two boxes of tissues, conspicuously available.
I knew why the tissues were there. They’re not for the sniffles. They’re for tears. They’re for cruel phrases like “brain dead” and “inoperable.”
Psalm 31 was penned for such cruel phrases. It’s a deeply personal prayer of David, who was in such anguish that he wrote, “My years are shortened by sadness” (Psalm 31:10). His grief brought the added sorrow of abandonment. “I am . . . despised by my neighbors—even my friends are afraid to come near me” (Psalm 31:11).
But David dug deeply into his bedrock of faith in the one true God. “I am trusting You, O LORD, saying ‘You are my God!’ My future is in Your hands” (Psalm 31:14-15). He knew he could trust the One who had created him.
Back in the private room, the surgeon gave me good news. She told me that my wife could expect a full and complete recovery. I was relieved and deeply grateful! But if all hadn’t been “okay,” I trust that my faith wouldn’t have wavered as I declared, “You are my God!”
NLT 365-day reading plan passage for today: Matthew 6:1-18
More:
Job 16:11-22 reveals one man’s bewildered anguish at life’s unfairness. How can you relate to these verses?
Next:
What times of grief have you experienced? What did God teach you through those times? Why should you trust Him today?
Sandy on July 1, 2013 at 6:16 am
Tim,
Sweet release. In the midst of these fears, we hear lots of voices…you heard the right One. Lord bless you guys!
tom felten on July 1, 2013 at 9:15 am
The walk with Jesus has been described by Brennan Manning as “ruthless trust.” Having been around those who have received good news post-surgery or biopsy and those who haven’t, I’ve noticed that true faith in Jesus alone provides joy, peace, and hope for the journey.
loananna on July 1, 2013 at 9:35 am
Tim, we recently received news that my husband has cancer, a blood type..just went thru the bone marrow-biopsy and bone scrape and scans…now we wait on results as to type, stage and how to treat it…I pray each morning that this is a nightmare I will wake up from and for the Lord to spare my husband from all of this…I lean on my Lord’s strength, but sometimes I fall and have alittle more wine than im used to…This was so good to hear, he is with me on this journey. We now wait on the Lord..Thanks
tom felten on July 1, 2013 at 1:41 pm
loananna, praying for you and your husband today! As someone who has battled a blood cancer since 2004—most recently coming through a bone marrow transplant in 2011—my heart goes out to you. As much as you can, strive not to worry about tomorrow (as Jesus said), but to simply out the strength He’s given for this day. Click here for one of the posts I have written about my cancer journey. I hope it gives you some encouragement!
tgustafs on July 1, 2013 at 7:47 pm
Iaonanna, I don’t know you, but when I went for my walk tonight, I specifically prayed for you and your husband. This kind of pain touches everyone. We are brothers and sisters, you know. Please, do keep us posted. I may not reply right away, but I will check.
askbeloved on July 1, 2013 at 3:04 pm
The Lord, our God, is God indeed!
mccdumaguing on July 1, 2013 at 9:43 pm
Thank God for this post. I just returned from the site and read the article for today. Just last June 24, I had a miscarriage on my first pregnancy. My husband and I lost our fraternal twins on my 11 weeks. It was a very painful experience both physically and emotionally. Thanks to Jesus for we are well now because of the prayers and support of our Pastors, Parents, Family, Friends and brothers and sisters in the Lord.
Still we give thanks to the Lord inspite and despite of what had happened, for He is still in control. As he said in His Word that in everything we give thanks, in all circumstances for this is God’s Will for us in Christ Jesus.
I’m safe, my ovaries are normal and my uterus was completely cleared from all the possible remains of dead tissues and no need to undergo for a DnC. Also God provided and met all our needs and gave us the right person to be with us. Now, we are hoping and praying that on my next pregnancy it will we a second set of healthy baby twins.
We may not know our future, but I’m sure that God holds our future. He is a Living a God, whom we should put all our trust. He has the best plans in each of our lives and the best is yet to come.
To God be all the Glory!
GOD bless us all.
tgustafs on July 2, 2013 at 7:03 am
Wow, thanks for sharing this very painful experience with us! Praying with you.
My wife and I went through this experience as well (not twins though), and of course it’s etched in our minds. One year later she gave birth to our exuberant, joyful, supercharged son Liam, now 5 years old.
God bless you both!
mccdumaguing on July 2, 2013 at 8:57 am
Thanks also for inspiring us..Hope to share soon about our babies/children to be..
God bless your family.
GChoo on July 2, 2013 at 1:57 pm
Loananna and mccdumaguing, keeping both your situations in prayer. Trusting that God is good and faithful. Blessings.
winn collier on July 3, 2013 at 1:03 pm
There are too many of these dark places in our world. I look forward to the time when they are no more.
daisymarygoldr on July 9, 2013 at 1:34 am
We have all been there in the waiting room. For me too, while it was bad news on one occasion the outcome on another turned out to be good. Interestingly, in both situations that involved the death and survival of a loved one, God caused my focus to shift from self to others. And even in the moment of bereavement, my own sorrow paled in comparison when I considered the suffering of someone who had come to comfort me. This is the beauty of God enabling us to give others the comfort He gives us—even when we are weighed down with our own troubles.
tom felten on July 9, 2013 at 8:37 am
Good thoughts, daisy. I’m reminded of what Paul wrote in 2 Corinthians 1:3-6.